I was thinking, why is it that some people just can’t understand each other, they just don’t speak the same language and as much as they want or try-they can’t manage to communicate. There is a chemistry, there is something, but then the communication is a base to every relationship, and if it is missing-the dead end street is the only way they can walk. Without communication the souls can never find each other, and it will only be the question when will it all just stop. Chemistry can last long, but the Intellection of two souls can last forever. So they keep talking, but the words seem empty, since the other one can’t really understand a thing. I am sure we all had these situations. What to do then? You feel like you are arriving to the intersection and all your thoughts are getting together, but only one will survive. How do you chose a way to go?
I always trusted my instincts. It may sound crazy, but it’s unbelievable how many times I felt I knew exactly what will happen or is happening. I could very often feel if someone was hiding something from me or lying to me, I knew exactly what intentions someone had with me even if they did their best to hide it. I am not a witch, no worries, but I just love to listen to my inner voice and I love to let it be a part of my everyday life. Now very often it has happened that I do exactly the opposite of what I actually think that I should do, but it’s my mind that is telling me what I should do and my inner voice was the one that was deciding what I will finally do.
Now, when I say inner voice, many people would think that they don’t have it. You do, we all do, it’s our heart speaking with our whole body, it’s what lays under the surface, it’s the imagination, the feelings, not words, not thoughts, not expectations. The war between the heart and the mind, we were all there. Life teaches us that at the end, we all have to choose a side.
What will it be?
As for myself, I always had it very clear-I couldn’t do anything without listening to my heart. I can’t say that my mind wasn’t trying everything to steal my attention, and sometimes it was successful, but I knew that most of decision I was taking in my life were based on my feelings. Is that good? Well, we all know that the word balance could really solve all the problems, but very often that’s the most difficult part: to establish the balance. There are many ways to observe this issue, but I will focus on the factor of expectation and what influence it could have on our perception and experiences in life.
I think that expectations could kill the beauty of anything, they could destroy any dream and make us blind in just one second. Being the worst enemy to satisfaction, the expectations are able to distract you so well of anything that actually matters, they manipulate your mind so that all seems different than it is and you just can’t escape. We forget that sometimes we might not get what we want to get because it isn’t what we really need, or deserve. Did you ever feel like you lost something, thought you were going through hell in order to accept the loss, and then after you have ‘recovered’ you realize that it wasn’t a loss at all, in contrary, now you feel like you have gained something that means so much and has just changed your point of view, that it has made you stronger, that it has opened your eyes and woke you up? Don’t answer, I know the answer is YES.
I am lying in a bed and I’m thinking. Yes, thinking, not sleeping-I am a day dreamer and a night thinker. Lying in bed and not thinking about anything, say it again?
What would happen if we all just stop for a second, stop wherever we are, stop whatever we are doing, and think about how great life is? No, it’s not that difficult.
A friend of mine is meditating, and is constantly suggesting that I should do it too. So, I decided to try it.
Didn’t really work out.
The point of meditation is minimalizing the level of thinking, doing, moving and focus on breathing and keeping the body calm and still. I don’t even know why on Earth was I thinking that I could actually do that. I mean, sure I have moments where I just completely relax, concentrate on my inner peace and try to freeze all the thoughts at least for a couple of minutes, but meditating won’t bring me there- I know that.
I’m still thinking. Thinking about how mysterious life is. It will make you think you have it all under control, that everything is going according to ‘’the plan’’. And then suddenly it all turns around, an unexpected turn of events just happens without really giving you any time to think-you just have to face it and try to make the best out of it, even tought it wasn’t a part of your plan.
‘’Don’t wait for it to pass, but learn how to dance in the rain.‘’
Instead of hiding the scars and being ashamed of them, make art out of them and be proud of them, because scars are the proof that you survived whatever it was that tried to kill you. If the things don’t go as planned, don’t be surprised, don’t get distracted-coop with the situation, move on and let the new and unknown road lead you to a much better place, that maybe wasn’t small enough to fit in your plan.